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Happiness… what brings you happiness?

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Life is so topsy turvy. It’s hard to see the good sometimes (there is so much shit going on with some horrid people running around the earth) but I make an effort to get up in the morning and TRY to see the good. If not.. I will lose my fucking mind. Anyone else feel like we are in a bad Netflix mini series?
I mean.. what the actual fuck?
So what is happiness? What makes you focus on the good and not plummet into the bell jar?
For me, a good night’s sleep is worth everything. If I’m not sleeping well, I get super crabby the first day and I will cry the second day. After a very crazy summer of small business survival, calling the cops on a crazy obsessed stalker weirdo, a social media blow up for our business, lots of meetings with the city, revelations on the next step in business, and getting ready for our busy season… the last three months have been a whirlwind.
These past two days, I have been happy, lighter, more relaxed. I’ve been getting some great sleep (microdosing has been my saving grace). Since I’m an incredible light weight, that tiny dose knocks me out from 8 to 10 hours. Today I woke up at 7:30am, did some social media marketing, worked out, showered, had a cup of coffee with breakfast, got ready and checked in at work. Luckily, Tuesdays are typically my day off. I got to stop in to see my son at the bakery and grabbed an iced tea and then headed home to light some candles and do some computer work. Can I just say… I LOVE living in a small downtown. There is nothing like my little downtown area and the people there. It brings me great joy to stroll into the coffee shop before going to work, chatting with the locals and guests coming in excited to be there, then heading to the local bakery grabbing a treat or tea, and then driving down Main Street listening to music. It’s just… perfect in an imperfect world.
I use to be super hyper-focused on making people happy but I think for the first time in a very very long time… I want to make myself happy. Learning what makes YOU happy is a crazy feeling. You should know what makes you happy…. right?


What makes me happy lately:
Amy Poehler’s “Good Hang” Podcast • Kitties/Puppies * Fresh Flowers * Great Coffee * Great Iced Tea * Simon’s Cakes * Vanilla Candles * A great chunky platform shoe * A cozy oversized sweater * My weighted stuffed bunny * A great nap * People laughing * Putting my hair in braids * Fall and everything about it * Lightening Storms * 80’s & 90’s alternative music * Anything about Taylor Swift or Tori Amos * When the feral stray cats in my apartment complex want to hang with me * A great stick of incense * videos of people getting fitted for their hearing device and hearing for the first time * videos of people surprising their kids with a Disney trip * Give me all the perfume, powders and body oil.. can’t get enough * A great fuzzy blanket on a rainy day * Turning on all the fans in my bedroom on high, climbing under the covers, and listening to my fave sleep channel on Youtube * Coloring books and art supplies * Clouds * Meteor Showers * Sitting on a patio in Sedona and just enjoying the view in the fall or spring *
a great sad song with fantastic lyrics… and last but certainly not least… my son and what an incredible person he is.

Sure… this isn’t everything but they are on the top of the list. What’s on your list? When you look at the world and everything going on… what brings you happiness and away from feeling numb to situations happening around you?

Wishing you all much happiness and I hope you are surrounded by people that unconditionally love you.
Have a great day!

Coachella and other random thoughts

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Hello. It’s been awhile. My life has taken a serious detour and I’m not sure if I will ever get back on the road I was going down. Things are so … different. It’s hard to find joy in most things lately. Things seems so.. trivial and pointless compared to the state of the world we live in.
I want to do my normal content and chat with you about Coachella … but even that seems silly.
Plus, I wasn’t really into the set list this year. Don’t get me wrong, I did watch some of it and what I saw was pretty good. Coachella use to feel like a celebration to me… now it seems … like a cute bandaid. Effective yet utterly pointless. How did I get here?
I’ve reached the point in my life where I find myself crying over a stray cat on the side of the street, buying pink accessories for myself, my home, my car and to secretly wanting one of these crazy ass people downtown to come in and do something stupid just so I can take our bat and swing for their head.
Sweetly Violent… I guess? Is that a thing?
I’m so worried about the state of our world… worried about war, worried about my kid who’s the age they want if there’s a draft, worried if my business will make it through this shit, worried if I have enough money to survive this shit, worried that people are just going to get worse… my mind can’t focus on anything but the words “what the fuck”
How did the country get here? Well out of 42% of people surveyed didn’t know that Lay’s potato chips were made from potatoes. So … there’s that. Oh! Or how about that there is a thing floating online called “Rape Academy” that’s been viewed over 60 million times and it has a chat room where guys ask other guys advice about slipping women drugs and making sure they give them enough to knock them our but not make them over dose. Some of those men also have uploaded videos of them drugging their wives and not only having sex with them but having other men come over and have sex with them…
As someone who has been sexually assaulted as a child and an adult.. I am completely horrified.
Its funny the chaos and hurt a man gave inflict on a woman and then turn around and tell her she should
do better or act better or look better… Fuck man… surviving almost killed me, I’m just grateful to be here today.
I tried to focus on Coachella… I barely watched a third of it.
But what the fuck, I’ll drop my two cents anyways and give a shot.
Every year, I find a band I have never really heard of before or have heard of them but hadn’t listen to their music. This year, I got introduced to Wet Leg. I love them. They are great and I’m looking forward to diving into their discography more. Laufey performed and I was so pleased with her performance. She truly is such a talent. I tuned in to Bieber, both weeks. 1st week.. started out rough. I wasn’t sure what was gonna happen and if he was even gonna be able to finish the set. 2nd week… was really good. He seemed really happy and like a weight had been lifted. I feel like he really needed that and it made me happy to see him in his element and having fun. Sabrina Mother Fucking Carpenter… I mean… holy shit. That was 2 epic weekends for her. Loved the Thelma and Louise cameos, loved that Will Ferrel was out there doing what he does best, but the 2nd weekend she brings out fucking Madonna. What?!?!?
Anyone that truly knows me KNOWS I love me some fucking Madonna and this performance didn’t disappoint. I missed Lykke Li, The xx, Devo, and many many more. I just couldn’t keep up and didn’t have the energy to keep up with it this year.
Speaking of energy … I’m tired.. mentally, and physically .
Maybe I’ll feel up to it tomorrow.. good night.