I’m laying in bed, fan on, blue ocean lights waving across the ceiling, comfy blanket, and the windows are open… finally! Listening to the breeze outside and the faint smell of rain coming through the window… I am absolutely in love with this time of year.
Lately, life has been pretty heavy. I’ve cried myself to sleep, stayed up over thinking, bit my nails too short from stress, been so fucking angry I couldn’t see straight… it’s been a roller coaster of emotions for sure.
But tonight, the windows are open, the rain is here, I feel cozy, safe, and at peace. No.. I didn’t medicate too much. Yes. Medicated a little… but that’s beside the point. It’s the weather. This time of year is absolutely freeing. I have 1930-1940 music playing low and I’m enjoying the night breeze keeping my soul company tonight.
If only.. there was lightening and thunder.. it would be a fucking perfect night but this is as close as it can get.
I love fall.
I love just drifting off to sleep thinking nothing but good things even though the world is in chaos. I’m in a delusional state that things are gonna be ok. For now… I’m good with it. 😊
Sweet Dreams
(Here’s the link to my fave YouTube channel and the video I play at night)
