Month: April 2026

Top 10

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Lately, I’ve been so disappointed in people’s actions & words. There aren’t many great examples any more of decency. In men mostly. I have mostly seen examples of selfishness, manipulation, judgmental, and all in all shitty behavior. Most Men want attention but don’t want to give any. Most men can look & act like the troll under the bridge , yet they have an opinion on your looks. Most men want you to root for them., cheer them on, applaud for them, and make them feel better…. Yet they don’t feel the need to return any of those things.

You could be winning the biggest accomplishment but since it’s not about them … they feel like you aren’t giving them the attention and the applause that THEY need. Or… you could be at your lowest: the deepest depression, the most pain, the most stress, absolutely scared to death and they will just kick you while you’re down because you aren’t given them what they need at the exact time they need it.

Look pretty, be quiet unless spoken to, give praise even when they have done some pretty heinous shit, accept it when they take credit for any ideas you have given, don’t get sick, be happy and smile, keep up with appearances, be grateful for their presence because they didn’t have to give their attention today.

Look around.

Bad examples of shitty humans are everywhere. They are blowing shit up. Stealing. Lying. Committing crimes and just laughing at everyone because they know it’s acceptable.

Sure. They promise a lot. Until they get what they need or when they don’t get what they want from you. They love you as long as you fit in to the box they have built for you. They care about you , as long as you put them first over everything else. What a disappointment.

Someone, some where , will cry “that’s not fair! Men go through some shitty situations too”. Because they love to remind you of their trauma or their battles. Yet scoff at yours. Don’t forget their “Male Loneliness”.

I’ve given up hope that decent men are abundant in this world. I’ve given up hope that decent women are abundant in this world. As the world is burning, I wish there was a glimmer of hope that someone actually gave a shit.

So … when I need to be reminded of good humans doing good things… these are my Top 10 movies I watch when I need to escape reality and find an alternate world where people give a shit about people.

10. Nick & Norah’s Infinite Playlist

9. Sleepless In Seattle

8. Notting Hill

7. Picture Perfect

6. Shakespeare In Love

5. Reality Bites

4. Some kind of Wonderful

3. Say Anything

2. 50 First Dates or The Wedding Singer

1. When Harry Met Sally

Are these my top movies ever? No.

These are movies that I can finish and go… that was nice, they looked happy, that was sweet, it had that ending that makes you sigh because it was fucking refreshing to witness a good outcome with people that actually fucking care about another person.

These movies I’ve listed have a tough story at times but end up seeing the good in people. True intentions. I wish people (even myself) could see the good more often.

Coachella and other random thoughts

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Hello. It’s been awhile. My life has taken a serious detour and I’m not sure if I will ever get back on the road I was going down. Things are so … different. It’s hard to find joy in most things lately. Things seems so.. trivial and pointless compared to the state of the world we live in.
I want to do my normal content and chat with you about Coachella … but even that seems silly.
Plus, I wasn’t really into the set list this year. Don’t get me wrong, I did watch some of it and what I saw was pretty good. Coachella use to feel like a celebration to me… now it seems … like a cute bandaid. Effective yet utterly pointless. How did I get here?
I’ve reached the point in my life where I find myself crying over a stray cat on the side of the street, buying pink accessories for myself, my home, my car and to secretly wanting one of these crazy ass people downtown to come in and do something stupid just so I can take our bat and swing for their head.
Sweetly Violent… I guess? Is that a thing?
I’m so worried about the state of our world… worried about war, worried about my kid who’s the age they want if there’s a draft, worried if my business will make it through this shit, worried if I have enough money to survive this shit, worried that people are just going to get worse… my mind can’t focus on anything but the words “what the fuck”
How did the country get here? Well out of 42% of people surveyed didn’t know that Lay’s potato chips were made from potatoes. So … there’s that. Oh! Or how about that there is a thing floating online called “Rape Academy” that’s been viewed over 60 million times and it has a chat room where guys ask other guys advice about slipping women drugs and making sure they give them enough to knock them our but not make them over dose. Some of those men also have uploaded videos of them drugging their wives and not only having sex with them but having other men come over and have sex with them…
As someone who has been sexually assaulted as a child and an adult.. I am completely horrified.
Its funny the chaos and hurt a man gave inflict on a woman and then turn around and tell her she should
do better or act better or look better… Fuck man… surviving almost killed me, I’m just grateful to be here today.
I tried to focus on Coachella… I barely watched a third of it.
But what the fuck, I’ll drop my two cents anyways and give a shot.
Every year, I find a band I have never really heard of before or have heard of them but hadn’t listen to their music. This year, I got introduced to Wet Leg. I love them. They are great and I’m looking forward to diving into their discography more. Laufey performed and I was so pleased with her performance. She truly is such a talent. I tuned in to Bieber, both weeks. 1st week.. started out rough. I wasn’t sure what was gonna happen and if he was even gonna be able to finish the set. 2nd week… was really good. He seemed really happy and like a weight had been lifted. I feel like he really needed that and it made me happy to see him in his element and having fun. Sabrina Mother Fucking Carpenter… I mean… holy shit. That was 2 epic weekends for her. Loved the Thelma and Louise cameos, loved that Will Ferrel was out there doing what he does best, but the 2nd weekend she brings out fucking Madonna. What?!?!?
Anyone that truly knows me KNOWS I love me some fucking Madonna and this performance didn’t disappoint. I missed Lykke Li, The xx, Devo, and many many more. I just couldn’t keep up and didn’t have the energy to keep up with it this year.
Speaking of energy … I’m tired.. mentally, and physically .
Maybe I’ll feel up to it tomorrow.. good night.