I have pretty much given up on people.

Time & time again people show just how incredibly cruel, irrational, hateful, unstable, heartless, aggressive, and dismissive they can be.

America is super fucked up. It’s not great that’s for sure. But the world is also super fucked up and it’s not great either.

I went through life always struggling to stay a float. Always trusting people I had no business trusting. So much pain and betrayal… it fucking broke me.

I stand here today. Mending. More confident. More clear.

No more. No more letting awful people poison my happiness or treat me like I’m worthless. No more will I let myself feel worthless. When you start seeing people for who they are and what they are… it’s easier to move be forward and not letting their cruelty hurt you anymore. You realize … these people never cared about you. They never loved. You meant absolutely nothing to them. So why… why try? Why give them any time or energy? They do not care. Their actions are amplified 100% more times than any words out of their mouths

You let it go. You give it all back to the universe.

Besides this recent health scare and really shifting gears after everything….

I am more confident in each step and decision I make. I see things differently. I know longer dwell on things that have made me feel empty or broken. Things have been so much clearer.

Not gonna lie. The new Hayley Williams song , “Parachute” did send me in to despair a bit. I felt every word of that fucking song. After a cried a few times over it.. I started to get angry. Listening to her anger triggered an anger in me.

Maybe that’s what has kept me going these past couple weeks.

Everyone hang on out there and remember even when you feel like everyone abandoned you and didn’t give a shit… there are friends and some family out there that care about you and your well being.